My thoughts
I am listening to Owen Benjamin. It is so creepy because every time I hear him and I mean every single time it’s like I feel like déjà vu or something we’re like I just his thoughts are so aligned with mine like a so many things so many even his thoughts…are mine. It’s like Hey that’s my thought would you get that? that’s my thought …that’s what it feels like when I hear him. I think hes really smart and hes keeping a lot of things to myself to kind of like I do as well ..I think hes way smarter but if you’re too out there people don’t don’t listen to you and there’s a lot of truths that make people really really uncomfortable.
You know like everybody nobody has the complete truth about everything and I do see some blind spots in him..but u know I see blind spots in every body and every one just like the moon landing as a huge blind spot that you know Owen Benjamin is trying to open up anyways and I’m sure I have blind spots where I believe total lies or I you know you never know what’s truth these days I mean you never know and the things I know ..go way way deep and if I mention them I would really really scare people.
People might be afraid of me and take it the wrong way or think I’m a bad person or I’m stupid or maybe on even crazy so yes I keep a lot of things to myself through my life because I’ve always been like a book reader ever since I was a little girl I would be dropped off at the library and that’s what I would do and looking back God that wasn’t a good idea. My parents should not had done that without watching me. Saturdays library as a child for maybe 5 hours A-day a whole public library I mean looking back that was not a good thing to do because the things I read man…I mean I really wish I had a normal childhood I really wish I looked at normal stuff you know I mean I so much of my innocence was just taken you know I mean I went right for the fiction and the non fiction and the adult section and I read the entire volume of anais nin’s diaries as a child for example. I had nothing to guide me. I read entire volumes French literature. Dostoevsky. All of them. Not good. For kids. Like about courtesans and violence. Ask me any question.
My point is. I know human nature. The dark side. I read volumes. True crime section was where I lived many hours on weekends. The buffalo public library. I read 75 books a year.
I don’t even believe our American history. These guys rewrite everything they hijack and turn things their own.
Yeah. People like elon musk. Not one of us.
I know where he gets them from and I know where his thoughts come from any it’s like hes running in the same circles that I am kind of browsing..but maybe not I don’t know I just feel synchronicity it’s awesome and you know what he lives in Portland too.
I’m also very very prolific when I want to do something and you know that’s why I think political cartooning is a very healthy obsession I mean it is very healthy for me you know I’ve fallen for things and you now spent years chasing things that were not real but I had to find out anyway are you know I bet on spiritual journeys that had gone everywhere and I just want to say. I think I have my fingers and feet in many different places and I am in many private hangouts and groups and Skype messaging groups that you know a lot of people would be it would be hard to get in with these crowds. I have the private home numbers of the top people in all these fields different subcultures heck there’s even an anime right. I mean leaders and the opposition alike I can call up right now if I felt like it. The war between good and evil isn’t just between on trump supporters who are christians and dress preppy know there’s a whole world out there on trump’s side.
All walks of life from all accents and all countries and everywhere and there’s entire communities whether you believe in them or not There’s many many followers sometimes armies and then there’s people who have cult followings you know any time you have attention or importance or lots of views you get infiltrators and I’ve I know their I know their language I know how they speak to one another I know how the trolls “badgers” talk I know their scripts I just see a lot and I process a lot and I use what I know to do good with I can explain it but like Owen Benjamin I am OCD to about information and stuff like that and as you can see from my old blog post before I was political cartooning I would be outlining 6 hour YouTube videos and I type really really fast excessively and I don’t know there’s just something about me that’s just tightly wound like that like really attached I guess that’s what I call it really all my attached.
I don’t type fast on here because I have A little cell phone so I’m actually using voice to text and you know suck most of the time I edit. I am just so tired and so tired I feel like you know
Hey when Laura Ingraham on her show talked about how she doesn’t think women should wear yoga pants to the supermarket because it’s about being nicely dressed I thought wow
I get very very upset if I cannot find Alex Jones live for example if I can’t find info wars live I get really upset like every day I wake up like the 1st thing I do to my phone and David knights you know really early in the morning is and you know and I have to listen to all 3 and I and I’d have to do it at 2 times the speed and the worst day for me is Saturday . I am m like a little lost you know and you know saturday’s an awful day especially if you’re like a news junkie it’s really dead day because no Podcast then everything’s re runs and but Sundays there’s Alex Jones and now a counter think with Mike Adam’s you know I took a picture of him out at a raw vegan festival in 2004 I think..he used to be a raw began he was one of my heroes. I loved his show and articles I subscribed…
when I was saw in Miami you know I was really into healthy eating and Mike Adam’s he was the health ranger and he had a you know He had a Podcast and and I met him at this festival I took picture as I sat through a lecture about sprouts and now hes got his show on infowars. Sunday’s.
Alex says he wants 24 7 infowars on. Live. One day.
Yes it’s really cool because I remember him and Alex Jones fell out. Mike Adam’s tested his iodine or something and and he was warming alex publicly about it’s purity but it came off at as you know he was bagging his product
Or maybe that’s just old infowars gossip who knows but that’s my impression anyway when I met Mike Adam’s he looked really good And watching him on info wars he still looks the Same as 10 years ago.
And his shows are really really good like every single show is the best counter think every single one… I’m like floored it’s always like a new idea it’s a new idea kind of show he doesn’t just like watch other shows and then talk about at them or research by no he he goes he go somewhere else with that no one’s gone before and I’ve so many times hes pointed out new ideas
Today Show it was kind of scary was kind of scary and I 100% know hes right and I did write something about gold once in my blogs I did but I you know later on when I listen to Alex Jones I found out I had many flaws in my article but you know what you know I know that now I do I know that now you know but there’s a lot of experiences I’ve had that you know Alex Jones you know hes a carnivore you know I’ve been 7 years as a raw vegan 3 years fruitarian again and I see how he knocks it but you know yet I’ve experienced I mean like a life changing a life changing experience like I physical experience that that I’ve never had before like I felt like I felt like I was a you know 30 year old teenager you know it’s just like everything came back flush and flush and I’ve seen it and I had you know..before that I had 2 years as antibiotics from Planned Parenthood I was very sick you and I changed my diet . Nothing would work in no pill would help me no emergency room road trip no dermatologist trip nothing would help how sick I was I was literally on my way to death and I was also addicted to red wine I mean I was very very sick and I was dying inside. And when I changed my diet I just you know and to hear Alex Jones lock things like that in our or to hear him talk about adrenochrome but you know he likes his beef taco you know would you think see that meat when when that animal watches his friends you now get hung up them know stuff like that but I’m you know I don’t do it for the animals on I believe man comes 1st but I’m just saying I have experiences you know where I can see a blind spots but out if you know else just did a little research into it you know it could be a life changing experience for him to where he could no true beauty may be possible unlike you felt as a teenager…and on just say you know its there’s a lot of blind spots so we all do education and educating people you know because everybody’s got an opinion about something but they might not be right if they’re just the their 1st grade teacher told them were something you not understand or they think they understand something but they their they’ve been tricked.
For example. The year could be 1018. These people hate the bible soooo much…they would put 1000 years between us. You think you know history? You think you know science?
It’s the religion of luciferians. Think about it. Mercury. The snakes. Vaccines. Inner space. Oath to apollo. Virus. These people can’t save a life for nothing it’s all smoke and mirrors. Your immune system. They feed the schools. Which feed your brain.
Truth is. You can memorize names and fortune tell all you want but you really don’t know anything about someone else’s body. Even if you are the specialist sometimes.
I am not talking about saving lives.
I am not talking about healers. The good sayings teachings in the bible could be the highest tech we have when you know the truth about how the Satanists have their power and money.
The bible says things. And I think we need a Trump chapter. After everything that will happen…I predict this. Years ago. I said it. There will be a Trump chapter in our bible. The history of Christianity. When it almost was lost.
I mean the bible with all its kings queens daughters coisins…it sounds like they were writing history of their religion. Why not continue.
But the world isn’t ready wait til hard times comes. Wait. If revolution not first.
Look around. Christians are choosing to die for their belief than convert.
Where does everyone want to live? It’s just a matter of time.
Wow I really miss walking my thoughts you know I had a blog in 2004 and on the front page I linked drudge. It’s there way back machine. I prove I am conservative. I not a spy. Or a Russian troll. But I think uncle vlad is a stud. I posted my 2008 voting card on Instagram. Rep!
I am no stranger to knowledge.
Everything written in here is fiction it’s all fantasy I’m like a poet I have German humor.
Today I felt like it was a crime to feel bad. It’s a crime to suffer. A crime to be A victim. And reality punishes you.
You don’t get rewarded by being sad and a victim.
It’s punishable to be unhappy. Does that make sense.
Listening to another Owen benjamin.
Tucker Carlson I love too. Great hair. Good ties. Nice loafers. Nice belt.
This world is beautiful Owen. I know all about nihilism. I am expert. Insider info. I had Ambrose Pierce “devils dictionary” first grade. I won spelling bees. I watched Sctv. I always felt ” better”.
My humor is Airplane movie. That’s my humor. I love Charles Addams. I just read his life story. The week before I read Norman Rockwell life. I only read half I had to return
I have Always been artist. Every school I been to. I became friends w the art teacher. I love writing short stories. I used to play haunting music while writing dramatic stories. I would read all of Thomas hardy books in the attic.
I love to read. In college I enjoyed Wide Sargassi sea. I saw the movie and it really loved me. I figured out why at the end.
I was creepy Emily. A group of us all braces and greasy hair. Gene loves jezebel posters. The smiths painted on our nails. I remember I dressed all in black and sat at the back and looked at no One.